Friday, January 22, 2016

2016 State of the Author

I thought it was about time for an update on the blog. 2015 was a rough year. From the point dad was diagnosed with cancer a year in May a year and a half ago and losing him in June, I really haven't been myself. I'm only just now getting back to the point I feel relatively stable. Losing a parent, even one you've grown distant from and have really shitty memories of is incredibly difficult. My dad was an asshole, but he was my dad. And I really just wish sometimes I could go up and work with him in the workshop or sit with him on the sofa and watch John Wayne movies. Or have him show up to surprise me at work with a made up name on my work schedule.

I don't remember my dad how he was before he died. I remember him from when I was a kid. With the phone to his ear in the kitchen and a trucker hat on his head and wearing his stupid plaid shirts. The same shirts I can't even look at anymore without feeling a little squeeze in my chest and my throat threatening to close. I don't know if that feeling will ever go away or if I will ever be able to listen to the song my sister played at his funeral or the song that he had as his ringtone without breaking into tears. Even just thinking about it right now I have tears in my eyes.

I've picked up a second job. Now in addition to doing massage, I'm also a pharmacy technician. I'm working with a pharmacist who has been a long term client of mine. I like the work. It's challenging and I'm still learning. It also pays in taxes for me so my tax burden is less. I still haven't paid my taxes for last year. I'm setting up a payment plan. And I haven't filed my taxes for this year yet. Yay no money. Not to mention during my crash in the last year dad was alive and the three months afterward, I fell behind in my bills. And you know how it is when you fall behind with bills. Fees and fees and some more fees and fees in addition to that. Which is completely stupid. Let's take this card no one has paid on, can't pay on for whatever reason and add MORE MONEY onto the total. Who thought THAT was a bright idea? So I've been calling and trying to work out details with the credit companies to pay things off, down or whatever.

In addition to all that, my teeth have finally decided to go the way of the dodo. I have to have everything extracted, some implants put in and both an upper and lower plate that attaches to them. This, of course, is not cheap. Yay crappy teeth.

Since I've been working about 50 hours a week and only have Sundays off, I've decided to drop Dames & Dragons magazine to a biannual magazine instead of quarterly. Bigger issues, more time to write, germ ideas and edit. And maybe then I could get back to writing.

I have plans for two or three books this year. Hopefully I'll be able to get at least one published. And I would like to post to the blog more often, even if it's just posts about things from my jobs. Or maybe the promotion trips I'm taking to conventions. I only have plans for Marcon and Origins this year. But I'd like to promote the magazine.

I'm always up for chatter if anyone wants to hit me up. Twitter is your best bet. I have it on my phone. Or the Line App. I'm Lockefox on Line and DeAubreyDigest on Twitter.